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My mind is blank, lost behind all this stress.
The stress that drags you down, holds your shoulders down, and back making this tight knotting feeling in them. And never can you fix it not with heat, or cold, and not even sleep. But then I want to resort to a blade and that might help, but its not and everlasting feeling, and i don't want it. But i want it. And never can i escape my mind, So never can i escape this blade, Someone help me.
The stress that drags you down, holds your shoulders down, and back making this tight knotting feeling in them. And never can you fix it not with heat, or cold, and not even sleep. But then I want to resort to a blade and that might help, but its not and everlasting feeling, and i don't want it. But i want it. And never can i escape my mind, So never can i escape this blade, Someone help me.
Have i lost you, Or is my mind seeing stars?
Have I lost you, or is my mind seeing stars?
I keep thinking there's another entity, that im not the reason we are parting.
But I can't help but notice that everyone stars, because of the scars.
The ones you gave me,
The ones that will never go away,
The ones that were put there by words,
The ones that were put there by nightmares,
The ones that take me over,
The ones I wish were Memories of days of Happiness,
Have I lost you, Or is my mind seeing stars?
I See the distance.
The long stretch of road between us,
The thousands of miles,
The moon and the stars between our reach,
The gap between our hearts,
A puzzle piece that just doesn't fit together.
Have I lost you, Or is my mind seeing stars?
I cant tell weather if its your job,
or if its because I cant come over,
Or our parents,
but I know we aren't Romeo and Juliet so baby tell me I HAVEN'T LOST YOU.
You guys have helped me so far i can see what you like when you view it and i can see what you favorite, and it means alot. You guys are helping me through this rough patch. and honestly i wanna break down and cry, fall to me knees and die. but i cant because i am a model to people who look up to me, but im tired, im close to my peek. and you guys are my turning point, thank you.
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i was never saved.
Monday, March 14, 2016
Sam Brimhall
My friend Sam wrote this too!:
Cheers
Let’s raise a glass to the cold and the broken. To the one’s who battle demons and razors every night. To the one’s with torn apart hearts and puffy eyes. A toast to those who smile and laugh all day but want every breath to be their last. To those whom greatest accomplishment that day was waking up. For all of the people who are sick of being judged for your grade point average, we drink to you. Too you who bleed out your emotions through art or sound or written words. To the one’s who have hit rock bottom more times than one.. Cheers to you. The one’s who won.
Sam Brimhall
My friend Sam wrote this:
How Many Times
How many times have you said hello
How many times have you said how are you
How many times have you said what’s up
How many times have you said let’s hang out
How many times have you said you’re awesome
How many times you said we’re friends
How many times have you shared a secret
How many times have I shared another
How many times have you said I won’t tell anyone
How many times did I believe you
How many times have you called for help
How many times have I come to save you
How many times have I said it will get better
How many times have I said I love you
How many times have I said I’m always here for you
How many times have I proved it
How many times have you been there for me
How many times have you said i'm here for you
How many times have you said it will get better
How many times have you said I love you
How many times have you said i'll never leave
How many times have you lied to me
Let me know what you think so i can tell her.
For you my Dear.
So this is for my friend,
You laugh at what they tell you too, you stand like a statue when they make you. You watch every move because you are another chess piece on a board of checkers. Somewhere you don't belong, but you can't help the fact you're not black and white like them, you're the color that makes this world shine, you hold us together. When we see you full of conspiracy and danger, we feel alive, we feel the spark of fire we are, and we know that we are not alone, we know that we are so much more than a piece of checkers or chess, we are a game of monopoly, a game that doesn't end. we shine like diamonds in a black and white world, because you gave us our hope.
dear life, we have known you for too long, and have compromised too long to your rules, this is where take our stand..
You laugh at what they tell you too, you stand like a statue when they make you. You watch every move because you are another chess piece on a board of checkers. Somewhere you don't belong, but you can't help the fact you're not black and white like them, you're the color that makes this world shine, you hold us together. When we see you full of conspiracy and danger, we feel alive, we feel the spark of fire we are, and we know that we are not alone, we know that we are so much more than a piece of checkers or chess, we are a game of monopoly, a game that doesn't end. we shine like diamonds in a black and white world, because you gave us our hope.
dear life, we have known you for too long, and have compromised too long to your rules, this is where take our stand..
im never as good as they want me too be or at least that's how i feel, my dad kind left when i was a kid and re entered my life a few years ago but nothings the same now hes got his own life in california and my mothers in prison and my brothers just gone and i barley see my little siblings because of their douchebag father so nothing i can do seems right, i feel lonely and lost. i guess that's normal though because not everyone has a good life. oh and CPS. 
So i'm guessing you're wondering why all of shit is just randomly coming up, well its because im in a very vulnerable spot in my life right now and this blog is all i have you are all i have right now and honestly i am very thankful for you guys and everyone who views everything! if you have requests just comment below!
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